“You seem to be engrossed in world of your own”,she inquired.
He didn’t know what prompted her to ask this .He never gave her a reason to question his eccentricity. It was his own little secret; his thoughts and their infinite volume. What should he say that she never question him again. Maybe an honest cover -a truth folded in a napkin of drooping love.
“Just making up mind to get rid of the quandary , a peace of mind”, he twinged revealing a scant of his secret.
Holding his face in her palm and making him look in the eye, she flinched to converse further. There was such sadness subdued in his eyes, a look so terrifyingly vulnerable. Will she overstep the boundary if we stepped in? Will he let her give him some comfort? Still unsure, she continued with a lump in her throat.
“I know your every frown and every little curve on your face”,she whispered , “and I know you are facing hard time looking for job, a career you perceive is in shambles and you’re afraid to take a risk. Money again ? Dammit! It won’t give us peace of mind, you should know it better than I do. I wish you take a risk at what you know better, invest in something of your interest. Still you have left with some guineas. You can do something, rather anything of your likings. Sitting here idle ,hopeless and shattered will soon leave you chained in prison of your thoughts.”
Every syllable she uttered was right but he was scared, scared for the future and the qualms it presented. What if he failed again? Will she be still their to mend his jagged heart lost and imbibed? Just for her sake of happiness, he heard himself saying unbelievably.
“By God! I don’t care if I fail again or I win maybe but I know this time I shall not make you disappointed. I hate it what I did it wounded with pride and ego . I was self absorbed listening to the sound of my failures, their burden insurmountable coaxing me to black hole of sadness. I ll try to make our future forever together bearable with a bit of my efforts and your love.”
Radiance glowed her cheeks at his earnest response.
Smiling with the gravity of his words this time, he kissed her hard making an oath to keep their forever sealed with his promise of a better tomorrow.
–An excerpt from my mind